Well, for me, having a sense of truly starting over is what my heart needed. It's what my inner me has been desiring for so long. To start fresh. To be a brand new me. These last few months have given me an little glimpse of who I am; not who I thought I was supposed to be. I know that finding the real me is going to take some time. The real me shows her beautiful face in certain scenarios; usually over a dinner or drinks. Definitely over drinks. I'm not on my guard, worrying about what other people will think about me or what comes out of my mouth. I am FREE. To. BE. ME!
My dear, patient husband is such an encourager in this situation. He wants me to be the ME that I am around him around others. I know my words are going around in circles, but that's what's circling in my head. He wants everyone to experience ME. He's amazing and he's mine. =)
So with a new year, new goals (I don't want to say resolutions because, well, I just don't.), and a new perspective on things, I look forward to see what 2013 will bring me and my family.
Before I divulge my new goals for this year, I must confess my goals from last year. I did succeed in most, but definitely have areas of opportunity for others.
10 Goals for 2012 (just to get me started):
- Complete Rockin' Body and one other Beachbody program. I completed Rockin' Body and attempted Brazilian Butt Lift.
- Read 6 fiction and 6 non-fiction books. Suggestions welcome. I read 2 non-fiction books and 15+ fiction books. I'll take it. Getting a Kindle for my Mother's Day gift really helped me crank out my reading goals.
- Learn ASL. I learned a few new signs, but didn't really dive in deep. I can't take classes at the college since they conflict with my current schedule.
- Save up $2225.00 for half of Dave Ramsey's Counselor Training - Didn't save a dime for it. :( I'm going to have to take this off my list. I'm thinking this will be a good 5 year goal.
- Blog at least once a week. This DEFINITELY didn't happen. I didn't make blogging/journaling a priority this past year. I did fill up a couple of hand-written journals, but that's about it. Blogging isn't really one of my strengths. I do enjoy writing, but to commit to once a week is a stretch.
- Learn how to plan freezer meals. Well, I must have thought I would get a stand-alone freezer this past year. So didn't even attempt any freezer meals.
- De-clutter. I did de-clutter. I got rid of things without attempt to put them up for sale. I donated a lot of stuff and just filled up the trash. I have a long way to go. One book that I picked up is about learning to live life simply.
- Start and finish a craft. I did! I finished several. Thanks to Pinterest and all the awesome ideas out there, I was able to make some cute things for our house and gifts.
- Join a woman's group. This didn't happen either. I'm still working on the girlfriend factor. It's an area that I struggle with. More to come later.
- Getting in bed by 10:30pm Hah! Who was I kidding?! I enjoyed my time after that.
- 156 (Bobbie Jo, thanks for the number!)
- Baby steps to better health. We're working on eliminating a majority of the processed foods in our house and working on our general well-being.
- De-clutter some more.
- Spend more meaningful time with my family. Last year I was gone, in a hotel for work for 2 1/2 months. That's a long time for a mama.
- Focus on what God has planned for me. I do a lot of planning. I mean, A LOT of planning. That just kind of leaves me as a hot mess. At the GLS one year, one of the speakers said somthing to the effect of, "If you can figure it out yourself, you're insulting God."
- Work on friendships. This is something I struggle with. I think this will be a topic of discussion for me this year.
- Plan a woman's study group. I'm saying plan, because seeing it come to play is not something I can foresee at the moment.
Happy New Year!