An Honest Mess
"Relationship. Life without it is meaningless....This is how God wants to do life with us."
But where I do want to go is that I know I can better my relationship with God. I've been digging deeper in His word, more than I've ever before and He has been showing me some amazing things in my life, along with the no so good parts. And the great thing, yes, I said, "great," is that He's helping me to be honest with myself.
In my counseling sessions I've been learning to be honest and open with people. Not that I've been lying to them, but I'm only showing a portion of who I am. I've been so paralyzed with fear of what people will think of me that I only give them bits and pieces I think they can handle.
"Believer, God does not want your good behavior but your honesty. He is real, not some plastic, heartless taskmaster ambivalent to your anguish. He'd take your messiest, ugliest prayer over your silence."
"On judgment day many will say to me, ‘Lord! Lord! We prophesied in your name and cast out demons in
your name and performed many miracles in your name.’
But I will reply, ‘I never knew you. Get away from me, you who break God’s laws.’" Matthew 7:22-23
God, thank you, thank you for your desire to KNOW me. I pray to continue to feed this hunger I have for You. I want to make You a priority in my life so that Your grace and mercy and not for nothing. Help me to use my time wisely with You and to focus intently on us. I love You! Amen!
Thanks for spending tonight with me Ladies. I'm sorry it's such a late post. We've had a rough start to the week and my husband just got called back to work with only 4 hours between. Please pray for him and his rest when he comes home tomorrow.